There was a conversation the other day that I thought was important to preserve. Here it is, for all you breathless followers of this electronic version of my random mind:
1: I feel inadequate 2: how are you inadequate now?
1: a - I'm ugly.
b - I work in vain.
2: a - your opinion of how you look doesn't matter, and the people who matter like how you look.
b - we're students, we haven't done work yet so how can you label it as vain already.
1: I just feel like I'm going nowhere. I've worked hard all my life and it's for nothing. the world is going to shit.
2: First off, why is it necessary to feel like you are going somewhere? there's nowhere more worthwhile than nowhere.
Second, you've worked hard because working hard is part of who you are, I hope, and not because you aim to achieve something.
And finally, the world is going to shit and there's nothing anyone can do about it. law of entropy: its gonna happen sooner or later.
1: I've been bleeding into entropy forever. Can't I just disappear already?
2: why? is there any more meaning or peace in chaos and nothingness? or is it cowardice that turns you away from that which tries you?
1: That's the thing: I never turn away. I bombard into it. That's suicidal and I don't like it.
2: Don't do it then. Live in apathy and fear.
1: No. Apathy is against my nature.
2: Live in pleasure and the present then, for there is nothing inherently better about the alternative.
I suppose it is what I work hard to imagine into existence: mind over matter. Imagine you see a rainbow and it becomes real; imagine you see a void and that becomes real. Choose.
ReplyDeleteBut there are still some things over which we have no control. What do we do with these things? Change systems from within? Is the only way to really affect change to become what you hate and hope it all works out for the best? Or leave it up to the wind?